So I did have plans for today. I know, foolish me, making plans with an unpredictable body like mine. Okay, universe, I get it.

We (the hubby and I) were supposed to go climbing, followed by an afternoon hike. I was looking forward to climbing — we haven’t been able to go consistently the last few weeks because of general busyness and switching off being sick. But we’re now both finally fully over a nasty stomach bug and ready to get back into the swing of things. Plus, I’ve been doing PT (physical therapy) for my knees for the last few weeks, and was asked to try more of a hike/something more active again to see how they do. And I was totally planning on being a good doobie and following orders!

And then I woke up early this morning (aside: WHY do I wake up before 6 on a Saturday when I can sleep??) super very verrrry dizzy. As in, I couldn’t focus well on a spot on the wall because my eyes kept jittering back and forth. You know when you get off a really spinny ride, or when you were a kid and you would get a big kid to spin you really fast on the merry-go-round? (Because we never play on playgrounds as adults, nope.) And the world is spinning so your eyes flit back and forth to try to focus on it? Yeah, it felt like that. I wasn’t confident I could walk a straight line, let alone climb safely up a wall or over a rocky slope.

The good news is it’s not so bad if I stay perfectly still. Although my back has decided to protest that plan.

Maybe if it doesn’t pass soon enough I can make a slow, easy hike work with hiking poles? Stay tuned for whether wiser voices win on that question. I don’t always like respecting my limits.

In the meantime, enjoy this picture of me where I wish I were.

Climbing on some nice crimps; rock climbing; chronic illness; undiagnosed; invisible illness; chronic pain; vertigo. Copyright to Cole, author of the blog.
Climbing on some nice crimps (Copyright to Cole, author of the blog)